More than Nothing

I am a lot of things. 

I am a peace-maker. 
I am quiet. 
I am shy. 
I am hopeful.
 
I am passionate. 
I am complicated.
I am simple. 
I am a sister.
 
I am a wife. 
I am a daughter. 
I am impatient. 
I am anxious.
 
I am unsure. 
I am waiting. 
I am content. 
I am a contradiction.

I am emotional. 
I am simple. 
I am a believer. 
I am an optimist. 

I am a child of God. 
I am a daughter of King. 

Those are just some of the words and phrases I would use to describe myself at any given moment.  I know, in the long run, I am the sum of all my various "parts."  I am the sum of all the unique things that I was created to be. 

I am a lot of things.

Yet, in the end, I know I am nothing, and I mean, nothing, without those last two statements being true.  I am a child of God; I am a daughter of a King.  Without my faith, and without my belief that I am part of God's bigger story, I would be nothing.  I would be just another person walking down busy streets, watching my life pass me by.  I would not find myself lost in the wonder of an almost 70 degree February day.  I would be busy, and without purpose.  I would be hardened by the 'stuff' that life has thrown at me.  I would be different.  And, not in a good way.

I know that I don't talk enough about my faith; I've never been good at evangelizing; instead I spend a lot of time hoping the life that I live is an echo of God and that people see something different in me and know I'm a different person because of Him.  And, I'm not sure that's always enough.  I know it's something I need to do better, and I something I want to do better.

I don't feel like I know much about God sometimes, but I know this - it is only because of Him that I am more than nothing.