Today the dark weather outside is clouding my mood. Why? I don't know. It's like the littlest things are making me cry; the littlest things are making me angry and sad and frustrated and hurt and all of that at once. i don' tknow how to make sense of all of that and how to actually make myself happy. There is not a lot in my life for me to be unhappy about; not a lot for me to be sad or disappointed about.

I just got a promotion, I'm in love, I have a great family, great friends, and a great church. I know God is there and that He is loving on me. I know that I am unbelievably lucky, but yet, today...the tears just won't stop falling. I just don't get it.

Life is a strange thing.