10.31.2007

It's My Life

My Monday evening was a little strange...

Monday night Tim and I went to Wal-Mart in search of Halloween costumes and a pumpkin (yeah, I know it's a bit too late, but our lives have been really crazy). We had no luck with the costumes or the pumpkins - but did manage to buy some new sunglasses and a clock for my bathroom.

All in all, a non-successful trip to Wal-Mart after a series of unsuccessful stops. we were in the parking lot, and there was this old beat up toyota truck parked behind Tim's car. We're talking rusted out, you know...OLD. I walked by it, glanced in the bed, and yup...totally a dead deer staring at me.

I totally did one of those walk by, see a hoof attached to a leg and thing...NAH, couldn't be...

So you walk back and take a closer look and yup, it totally is - dead deer just tossed in the back of a truck on top of some old tires and junk.

Seriously, what does that say? I mean, I've always thought Wal-Mart could be a little...sketchy...but wow...

So, that was my Monday night. How was yours?

10.26.2007

With Friends Like These...

It's been one of those insane and crazy weeks at work. A million things coming due all at the same time, plus the added stress of big weekend events, a couple videos, and the usual whatnot that happens when you work at a church. One of the things adding to the stress for me is that a good friend is leaving the church to pursue a job in the corporate world. I think it's a great decision for him, and for his family, but I would be lying if I said it didn't leave me a little sad and leave a spot missing. He has done so much to push the church, and I think has made a greater impact that he even realizes. Him leaving is a giant loss to us - and just another in the line of losses that have happened over the last few years. There have been a lot of changes and we've had to say good-bye to some good friends.

Nevertheless, I was reminded last night of a friendship that has only continued to grow through all the changes. Korry and Tessa have been friends of mine for a long time, it seems. We have hung out together a few times, but usually see each other in the context of work - you see Korry is another staffer - and one that almost got away. God seemed to have other plans, though, so they are still here, which I have come to appreciate more and more over the last several months. Korry and Tessa continue to challenge my faith, my thoughts, and urge me to grow. As a couple, their marriage is something I admire - you can tell they are each other's biggest fans and biggest supporters. As Christians, their faith and their beliefs are deeply rooted in their desire for authentic community and relationships. At the same time, I take heart knowing that they can see the potential, no matter how small, in the glimpses of progress at church. Together, they push the envelope, but push it with grace and humility.

Anyway, Thursday night after rehearsal and before a LONG weekend, we had inpromptu dinner with Korry and Tessa. It was refreshing to spend time with them, to just hang out, talk, and 'do life' together as the saying goes. I have always enjoyed their company, Thursday night I realized just how much I appreciate their friendship and influence in my life.

10.24.2007

Quick Book Reviews

I have posted min-reviews in the sidebar, but here is what I've thought about in regards to the first three books I've read for the fall into reading challenge.

The Jane Austen Book Club:
Okay, I haven't READ Austen in quite awhile, but I had high hopes for this book. It seemed like it would be a good read, and it was fine, but not as good as I had hoped. I thought the stories of the characters were well-defined and interesting, but then there was this gimmick of adding Ms. Austen to the mix. I honestly think the story would have been just as entertaining without the references to Austen and her works. I checked the original hardback out of the library, but saw the paperback with the movie poster on the front. After reading the book, I'm really interested to see how the actors they've chosen play the parts - because the women in my head were VASTLY different than the actors they hired. (Yes, I know that's a side note, but still).

If you enjoy Austen and enjoy good, easy literature, this is worth the read. It's a good beach read, or, since it's fall, a good fireplace read.

Lisey's Story:
If you don't enjoy Stephen King, just skip this review. If you do like King, or are at least interested in him, then you will probably enjoy Lisey's Story. This is not the gory, graphic Stephen King of IT. It is also not the flat out scary King of Bag of Bones. (side note: Bag of Bones is probably the scariest book I've ever read. Seriously, it was a lights on, broad daylight kind of read for me). Instead, Lisey is an almost mythical, fantasy story about two worlds and how the intersect in the minds and lives of a creative few. The tragic death of Lisey's husband and the subsequent journey into the world he created and embraced is the heart of the book. While it is not King's best work, it is probably one of my top 10 King novels.

Who Is Killing the Great Writer's of America
This book was dumb. Honestly, it's not worth reviewing. If you want to be bored for a couple hours, read it. If you're stuck in a dentist chair and every back issue of Popular Mechanics is gone, I guess it would do. I have rarely disliked a book like I disliked this book. (And yes, I do have a pretty good sense of humor. this book was just DUMB!)

10.23.2007

Oh What A Year

Tim and I celebrated our anniversary over the weekend. It has been an amazing first year, full of craziness and wonderful twists! Here are just a few of the highlights (in no particular order)~

  • Honeymoon in Jamaica (complete with snorkeling and sunshine)
  • Thanksgiving with his family in St. Louis
  • Christmas Eve & Christmas with my family in Albion (along with all the pets)
  • The Price is Right in LA (complete with the sidewalk sleeping and funny Canadians)
  • BodyWorks and The Palmer House Hilton in Chicago
  • Lots of walks around the apartment complex, enjoying each other's company
  • Getting involved in the Young Married Ministry at church
  • Celebrating each wonderful month together
  • Sharing in the joy when our niece was born
  • Sharing with jason and amy when their second son was born
  • Lots of laughter, lots of jokes
  • Buying a house
  • Moving
  • Unpacking
  • Being married to your best friend

10.19.2007

Yes, I love the Church.

Right now we're in the middle of a sermon series called "Why I Love the Church." It's sparked some interesting discussions not just about why people love the church, but whether they love the church. And, because I can see both sides, I've listened, agreed when I felt the need and agreed, and have spent a great deal of time just thinking. While I haven't come up with anything mind blowing or different, I have come up with an answer that I think would surprise a lot of people.

Yes, I love the church.

Don't get me wrong, I agree that the church is broken (as much or sometimes more than the world), that there is a lot that needs to change, and that there are things that make me absolutely CRAZY, but still. I love the church. I love what the church stands for - love, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, joy... I love what the church strives to be - open, honest, inclusive, passionate. I love that people love the church enough to fight for her when she's down, when she's stale, when she's broken. I love that the church is flawed, but still God's own. I love that the church, when it is honest with itself, realizes that it fails at the mission to bring God to the world more than it succeeds. I love that the church is nowhere near what it should be, but is trying, desperately, passionately, privately, to be more.

I do not love what the church has become - political, vengeful, angry, hurtful, exclusive, a poor representation of what God has intended.

But I can still see the church for what is coming tomorrow and where it can be tomorrow.

I was at a meeting on Tuesday night where one of the speakers talked about how you have to choose your attitude when you are faced with circumstances beyond what you could imagine. That is how I choose to see the church. I choose to see the church as something worth fighting for, worth believing in, worth loving. I choose to see the church as something good even when the world is bad, something right even when it does things wrong, something striving for God even when it seems like sin is creeping in all around.

I love the church - because in the church I see a reflection of me - always striving to be better, stronger, more than what I am today. Often failing, but still trying. And still needing people to believe in me, even when it seems like all my ugly spots are showing. I choose to love the church, to serve the church, and to believe that the church is changing - because we're bold enough to do so.

10.18.2007

It's All Because of You....


On Sunday Tim and I will celebrate our one year anniversary! This is a very exciting time in our lives as I think back to what was going on this time last year. Last minute wedding details - tying ribbons on coke bottles, washing honeymoon clothes, packing, finding flowers...the week before the wedding seems to be mostly a blur of activity, packing up my apartment, and hanging out with my mom. Tim and I were lucky - we had our moments of stress, but for the most part, the wedding planning experience was exhausting but fun (at least I thought so).

Despite some rainy days in the week leading up to the wedding, October 21 was a beautiful fall day. The leaves were at their peak of color, the sky was blue, and it was the big day!



I could not imagine a more beautiful morning and more exciting day. I hardly slept the night before, but suddenly I was about to become a wife! Not talking to Tim that morning was so hard - I wanted to say good morning, I love you, I'm going to be your wife! I wanted to kiss him and hug him, but we stuck to tradition.




Tim and his groomsmen were a handsome crew! I couldn't wait to see them, even though I was starting to get a little nervous myself. I loved my dress, I loved my hair, but would the finished product be everything I hoped?




The moment was finally here. Ready to go and excited to see Tim, everyone lined up. Music swelled, I fought back tears....





Mom, Harry, and Cameron had never looked so handsome and beautiful to me. Standing there with my family while they promised to accept Tim, to let us live our lives toether, and to cherish each of us, was a beautiful moment.








It was a beautiful and wonderful day, that's for sure.

And, what's more, it has been a beautiful, wonderful year full of adventure, travel, laughter, good times, great memories, and growing closer each day. Tim is more the man of my dreams today than he was a year ago. I know I will love him more tomorrow than I love him today. He is my guardian, my support, my biggest champion, my forever love.

Here's to a wonderful first year! I love you, Tim!

10.15.2007

Things You Didn't Know...

My friend David just did this meme on his blog and said he wanted his friends to do it. It's early on a Monday and my brain isn't quite ready for the task of figuring out what to do, so here you go :)

Directions: Post 10-20 weird and random facts about yourself that most people wouldn't know. Then tag 5 friends to do the same.

  1. The first few months of my life, I lived in a Tee-Pee with my mom and dad.

  2. I have serious issues with sleeping with the closet door open.

  3. I can't eat shrimp - it's completely a texture thing - and watching other people eat them kind of freaks me out.

  4. I prefer to be cold when I sleep. Lots of blankets is better than sweating!

  5. I don't like to camp, but really love campfires.
  6. My little brother and I share a birthday.
  7. I probably wear pink 4 out of 7 days any given week.
  8. I chew on the inside of my lip when I'm thinking.
  9. I had my first poem published when I was 11.
  10. I wanted to be president of the moon when I was growing up.
  11. I was a girl scout until I was a sophomore in high school.
  12. I once had to eat lunch alone in my classroom in 1st grade as punishment for something I didn't do, but my teacher wouldn't believe me.
  13. I bite my fingernails when I'm nervous.
  14. I HATE the phone, especially at work.
  15. Halloween is my least-favorite holiday, because the pressure to dress up is too much - but I'm still going to Korry & Tessa's party and will enjoy myself!
  16. I have had my thyroid tested twice because I'm thirsty all the time.
  17. I've been wearing glasses since 2nd grade and contacts since 8th.
  18. Sometimes I swear my teeth itch!
  19. I don't think I lead a very exciting life.

10.13.2007

Domestication

Today I feel more like a homeowner than I have. Why? Because Tim is outside mowing (a sound that I love and find comfort in, I don't know why) and I'm doing laundry, cleaning, and just watched Roomba do his magic. I know Saturdays won't always be like this but it's nice to feel like we're taking care of something we both love and are proud to own. It's a very grown-up feeling, as well!

I have more to say, but not sure what. Just feel like blogging. Last night Tim and I went to Indianapolis with our friends Jason and Amy to see Cirque Dreams: Jungle Fantasy (courtesy of Liz!). The show was a lot of fun and I am SOO glad we went. I am also so glad Jason and Amy were able to go with us. We haven't done a lot just the four of us since their kids were born, but the times we do get to hang out and just be with each other are always so refreshing for me. It's nice to know you have good friends you can just relax with and that they are never more than a phone call away. There haven't been many big issues in my life in the past several years (praise God) but those than have happened, I have always known I can count on Jason and Amy to help!

In other news, I spoke to my friend Paul this morning. As you may or may not remember, he and his family are currently missionaries in Ireland. The past several months have been hard for them - a lot of not knowing what the future holds and where they are supposed to be and stuff like that. They made a huge decision this weekend, and I know Paul has peace about it for maybe the first time in a year. More changes are coming, but they at least have a direction for where they are headed right now, and that has to be refreshing!

I have read two of the books on my fall reading challenge list - "Who Is Killing..." and "Lisey's Story." "Who is Killing..." was dumb. "Lisey's Story" was very good. Probably one of my top five Stephen King novels. Not too scary or too gory, but a really good story nonetheless. I enjoyed it.

Okay, I'm rambling and I've rambled on enough....

10.05.2007

So Sick

How sick was Tim last night?

So Sick.

It made me so sad to see the man I love, the man I would move heaven and earth for if I could, so sick he could barely move - so tired he could barely sit up - so hot he felt like he was baking. And, really, there was nothing I could do. I got him water and asprin, and put a cold washcloth on his head - but still - it made my poor heart hurt to see him so sad, sick, and just mopey. After the medicine kicked in and he was able to sleep, he felt a little better last night and a little better still this morning. I am praying he feels more like his old self by this afternoon.

I am also praying that whatever he has I don't get. I am not feeling well, but am trying to convince myself that it is psycho-somatic and I am not really sick - just worried about the possibility of GETTING sick. We'll see...only time can tell, right?

10.04.2007

Patience Meter at Zero

Today, I am not so much in the liking people mood. Little things are annoying me to death. Honest mistakes are causing me all sorts of frustrations...and it's only a thursday. I am pretty sure I know why I am in such a bad mood, but that doesn't necessarily help anything. I hate waiting for phone calls and emails to be returned (even though I KNOW I am not the only one with problems happening today). I hate having to leave projects and assignements undone because I don't know how to correct them or what to do to make it work. Part of it is the learning curve of the new job - I am finally getting comfortable with the basics, but don't know what to do when crazy stuff happens. I KNOW the only way i'll figure it out is to work through the crazy stuff, but right now I'm feeling inferior and ... yeah, not sure what word to put there.

Other than that, I am feeling short on grace today, and am forcing myself to remember that I too made mistakes (and make them) and that nothing is so bad it can't be fixed - i just have to figure out how!

10.03.2007

Tears of Sorrow

A wonderful man, amazing Christian, doting husband, father, and grandfather passed away this morning. He has been fighting cancer for over 5 years, and it finally beat him. he's home with His Savior now, and the rest of us are mourning. Please keep Galen's family in your prayers as they go through the hardest time in a life.

Galen was an inspiration to anyone and everyone he came in contact with. Loving, kind, optimistic until the end. If everyone battling cancer did so with the grace he embodied, the world would be a different place.

10.02.2007

Debt Free


Something good, no great happened in my life at the beginning of September that I haven't really talked about.


During college, I was pretty dumb with money, so I had a fair amount of credit card debt. After college, especially that first couple years, I wasn't making much money, really, and still had expenses (including paying those stupid credit card bills) so I continued to live outside my means, thinking "I'll pay it off someday." That someday, though, seemed to get farther and farther away as time went on. The minimum payments were doing nothing to cut the debt, the interest rates were ridiculous, and I couldn't seem to find a way out. I stopped charging, but still, the paying off was KILLING me.


I made a goal about 2 and 1/2 years ago to get out of credit card debt in 4 years. I found a plan I THOUGHT would help, moved all my debt to one lump sum (which was sickening to see that number) and started making much larger monthly payments. I thought I had found a way out that would be hard, but manageable. Eighteen months in, and the number wasn't going down nearly as fast as I thought it would. I realized then that I had fallen victim to just another credit card company trying to get my business.


The kicker to me, though, was that I still managed to have excellent credit, despite my large debt. Paying on time and always making payments seemed to do enough to help counter-balance the number.


Fast forward to getting engaged and married. The day I told Tim what I had in debt was one of the hardest days for me. Admitting that I had failed - that I had been irresponsible and negligent and materialistic - was humbling. Tim is so good with money, so aware of every dime, that part of me was convinced he would want out when he knew how much i owed (and yes, we had this conversation BEFORE we were married, not after!) Instead, we made a plan. The - selfish isn't the right word - guilty, maybe? - side of me refused to ask Tim to help. It was one of those, I made the mess kind of deals. But, help he did, not necessarily with paying the bills, but with encouraging me to switch the debt to a lower interest rate, and by paying for many of our necessities himself so i could focus on ending the debt cycle.


And it's over. On September 5, I made my last credit card payment. No more accrued debt, no more dreading seeing those credit card emails come every month. And, I made myself a promise, and a promise to my spouse - that it will NOT happen again.


Do I still have a credit card? yes. Have I made a couple purchases on it? yes. will it be paid off when the statement comes? yes. I learned my lesson, and I thank God I learned it young, but I am so glad to be out of that cycle.

10.01.2007

Passionately PINK for the Cure

Breast cancer touches millions of lives and is diagnosed every day in our community. Without a cure, 1 in 8 women in the U.S. will continue to be diagnosed with breast cancer - a devastating disease with physical, emotional, psychological and financial pain that can last a lifetime. Without a cure, an estimated 5 million Americans will be diagnosed with breast cancer - and more than 1 million could die - over the next 25 years.

PINK! Together is supporting the fight against breast cancer by going Passionately Pink for the Cure™ on October 25th! By wearing pink and making a donation of $5 or more to Susan G. Komen for the Cure, you’ll be making a difference in the lives of millions. Donations to our team can be made online at http://www.komen.org/.

Passionately Pink for the Cure™ is an exciting new fundraising and education program of Susan G. Komen for the Cure kicking off Oct. 1 during National Breast Cancer Awareness Month. Companies, organizations, groups and individuals nationwide are picking one day in October and urging their associates and friends to make a nominal donation of $5 or more and to wear the group’s choice of pink apparel that day. The idea is to see pink everywhere, every day in October, reminding everyone of the crucial need to end breast cancer forever.

Please join PINK Together! on October 25, 2007 by wearing pink anything - shirts, shoes, socks, unmentionables - that day. In appreciation for your participation, you will receive a Passionately Pink for the Cure pin from Susan G. Komen for the Cure that you can wear the day of our event and every day after to show your support.

Komen for the Cure is the world's largest grassroots network of breast cancer survivors and activists fighting to save lives, empower people, ensure quality care for all and energize science to find the cures. Thanks to events like the Passionately Pink for the Cure, they have invested nearly $1 billion to fulfill their promise, becoming the largest source of nonprofit funds dedicated to the fight against breast cancer in the world.

Please say you’ll go Passionately Pink for the Cure! Contact Me about signing up and making your donation.

Going PINK for the Cure

October is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month. In honor of one of the most important causes in my life, my blog has gone PINK for the month of October.


Here are some sobering facts from the American Cancer Society:

How Many Women Get Breast Cancer?



  • Breast cancer is the most common cancer among women in the United States, other than skin cancer. It is the second leading cause of cancer death in women, after lung cancer.

  • About 178,480 women in the United States will be found to have invasive breast cancer in 2007.

  • About 40,460 women will die from the disease this year.

  • Right now there are about two and a half million breast cancer survivors in the United States.

  • The chance of a woman having invasive breast cancer some time during her life is about 1 in 8.

  • The chance of dying from breast cancer is about 1 in 35.

  • Breast cancer death rates are going down. This is probably the result of finding the cancer earlier and improved treatment.

I know a lot of women. These statistics mean I will know a lot of women in my life who fight breast cancer, who survive breast cancer, and how die from breast cancer. My dream is that that last category will be all but gone in my lifetime.

Go PINK with me this month - wear pink, color pink, support pink - it's more than a color!