Well, I didn't lose any weight this week. I gained 1.5 lbs back, actually, which isn't a huge deal, but still saddens me. however, i also know that it's at least partly my fault. I didn't write down what I ate this week, I justified eating with vacation and meetings, etc...and it's been a rough week. I'm one of those people who doesn't drown her sorrows in drinks...i drown them in SWEETS!
so, back on the wagon today. Hopefully next week I'll lose that 1.5 and a couple more!
7.27.2007
7.26.2007
The "Ugh" Factor
It's been one of those weeks.
I've been too busy and overwhelmed at work to really think about my diet.
I've been too tired at home to do anything but crawl into bed.
There have been too many emotions going through me all at once. I feel like the wind is being slowly drained from me instead of completely knocking me out.
I am disappointed in the fact that i'm sure I gained a little weight back this week.
I hate saying goodbye to people...and there are too many goodbyes coming in the near future.
I also hate complaining, hate whining, and hate feeling like a pitty party particpant.
It's just been one of those weeks.
They can only get better...right?
I've been too busy and overwhelmed at work to really think about my diet.
I've been too tired at home to do anything but crawl into bed.
There have been too many emotions going through me all at once. I feel like the wind is being slowly drained from me instead of completely knocking me out.
I am disappointed in the fact that i'm sure I gained a little weight back this week.
I hate saying goodbye to people...and there are too many goodbyes coming in the near future.
I also hate complaining, hate whining, and hate feeling like a pitty party particpant.
It's just been one of those weeks.
They can only get better...right?
7.18.2007
Weighing In
I hope you've been checking in on the weight loss blog. If you haven't, though, it's time to celebrate with me! I went ahead and did my weigh in today since my mom will be in town and I'm not sure whether or not I'll have access to a scale the rest of the week. As of this morning, I had lost another 2 pounds, making my grand total in a little under two weeks 5.5 pounds! YAY! It's so encouraging to be losing the weight!
7.16.2007
On Writing
One of the best books I have ever read on what it means to write, and to be a writer, is Stephen King's "On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft." I know it may seem like a strange choice of book for someone like me, but the truth is, I really enjoy King. Sure, he's scary and I don't like some of it, but some of it has been really good fiction - "The Body" (which became the film Stand By Me), "The Shawshank Redemption," "Everything's Eventual," "Bag of Bones" and "The Stand" are all favorites of mine.
What first attracted me to "On Writing" was that it was an honest account of one writer's life. (And I was in the middle of my Stephen King phase.) There are literally dozens of quotes that I could pull out to explain why I like it so much. Here is just one (please pardon the one cuss word!)
You can approach the act of writing with nervousness, excitement, hopefulness, or even despair - the sense that you can never completely put on the page what's in your mind and heart. You can come to the act with your fists clenched and your eyes narrowed, ready to kick ass and take down names. You can come to it because you want a girl to marry you or because you want to change the world. Come to any way but lightly. Let me say it again: you must not come lightly to the blank page. ("On Writing" pg 106)
How many times have I done just that? How many times have I approached writing with timidity because I thought there was no way anything I had to say was important, special, or unique? How many times have I let story ideas slip out of my grasp because I wasn't willing to hold on to them? How many opportunities have I missed because I came lightly when I was supposed to pour out my heart with both guns blaring?
The writing contest that I wrote about earlier came and went quickly. I had all these plans - people I wanted to read my story, honest critiques, et cetera...and then, when I was online on Friday, I realized the contest deadline was Sunday (July 15). What I wanted to do was just let it pass by, forget I had even read about it, and not try. What I did, instead, was spend part of Friday, Saturday, and Sunday putting the finishing touches on my little story. It came in WAY under the word limit (but, really, 1500 words seems like a lot for a children's picture book for zero to four year olds!) and I am pleased with it. Is it as good as it could be? I don't know. But, I am proud of myself because I sent it in, either way.
I am going to work harder at approaching the blank page with the passion I have for the written word. I'm sure I will fail often, but I will keep trying.
What first attracted me to "On Writing" was that it was an honest account of one writer's life. (And I was in the middle of my Stephen King phase.) There are literally dozens of quotes that I could pull out to explain why I like it so much. Here is just one (please pardon the one cuss word!)
You can approach the act of writing with nervousness, excitement, hopefulness, or even despair - the sense that you can never completely put on the page what's in your mind and heart. You can come to the act with your fists clenched and your eyes narrowed, ready to kick ass and take down names. You can come to it because you want a girl to marry you or because you want to change the world. Come to any way but lightly. Let me say it again: you must not come lightly to the blank page. ("On Writing" pg 106)
How many times have I done just that? How many times have I approached writing with timidity because I thought there was no way anything I had to say was important, special, or unique? How many times have I let story ideas slip out of my grasp because I wasn't willing to hold on to them? How many opportunities have I missed because I came lightly when I was supposed to pour out my heart with both guns blaring?
The writing contest that I wrote about earlier came and went quickly. I had all these plans - people I wanted to read my story, honest critiques, et cetera...and then, when I was online on Friday, I realized the contest deadline was Sunday (July 15). What I wanted to do was just let it pass by, forget I had even read about it, and not try. What I did, instead, was spend part of Friday, Saturday, and Sunday putting the finishing touches on my little story. It came in WAY under the word limit (but, really, 1500 words seems like a lot for a children's picture book for zero to four year olds!) and I am pleased with it. Is it as good as it could be? I don't know. But, I am proud of myself because I sent it in, either way.
I am going to work harder at approaching the blank page with the passion I have for the written word. I'm sure I will fail often, but I will keep trying.
7.13.2007
Emotions Runneth Over
This week has been an emotional one for me. Not in a bad way, at all, but just in a way where I'm feeling a lot and thinking about a lot and dealing with a lot. It's strange, because there is not a lot going on in my life, but there is a lot going on in the lives of my friends and I am just hyper sensitive to that now, I guess.
Yesterday was a LOOONNNNGGGG day. It's been a long week. But, the highlight of yesterday was when Paul poked his head in the door. There are a few people in the world that just make you feel more...you...by being around them. Do you have people like that? I know I do, and unfortunately, with the exception of Tim, I don't get to see them a lot. Instead, I talk to them on IM and email and the phone and try and convince myself that it is enough. But, when I see them, when I get to hug them and connect with them, it's like a piece of me that was lying dormant wakes up again. That is a wonderful feeling.
I know I won't get to see them or spend as much time with them as I would like while they're here, but that's okay. Just seeing them and spending a little time with them is refreshing. And, you know, if we have to go back to Ireland to see them (or wherever they are) I am good with that!
I am looking forward to a relaxing Saturday and gearing up for an INSANE week after that, but good insane...mostly!
(and, as a sidebar, I lost 3.5 pounds on my first week of dieting!)
Yesterday was a LOOONNNNGGGG day. It's been a long week. But, the highlight of yesterday was when Paul poked his head in the door. There are a few people in the world that just make you feel more...you...by being around them. Do you have people like that? I know I do, and unfortunately, with the exception of Tim, I don't get to see them a lot. Instead, I talk to them on IM and email and the phone and try and convince myself that it is enough. But, when I see them, when I get to hug them and connect with them, it's like a piece of me that was lying dormant wakes up again. That is a wonderful feeling.
I know I won't get to see them or spend as much time with them as I would like while they're here, but that's okay. Just seeing them and spending a little time with them is refreshing. And, you know, if we have to go back to Ireland to see them (or wherever they are) I am good with that!
I am looking forward to a relaxing Saturday and gearing up for an INSANE week after that, but good insane...mostly!
(and, as a sidebar, I lost 3.5 pounds on my first week of dieting!)
7.12.2007
The Order of the Phoenix
If you haven't seen this, you should. It's my favorite of the Harry movies. just thought I'd share.
7.09.2007
Thoughts for the Road
I have started my weight loss blog and have been writing my thoughts and food intake on it. Check it out and let me know what you think. :)
In other news, I hate ants. They keep coming back in our kitchen and it's about to make me crazy and/or cry. I hate them crawling. I hate them where I need to be preparing the healthy food I'm supposed to be eating. I hate them taking up space and making me feel like a dirty housekeeper. I know ants have nothing to do with the way our apartment looks, but still.... so i called the apartment people AGAIN today. Hopefully they'll get something taken care of soon.
I'm going to see Harry Potter tomorrow. I'm excited. I'm very sad that I'm not seeing it with Liz, but glad there were still people who didn't have their plans finalized that I could tag along with!
I get to see my friends Paul & Abigail this weekend and am SO excited.
My mommy is coming down next week. I love my mom and I cannot WAIT to spend a few days with her, and have a couple much-needed days of vacation.
these are just what i'm thinking about right now...and now time to work!
In other news, I hate ants. They keep coming back in our kitchen and it's about to make me crazy and/or cry. I hate them crawling. I hate them where I need to be preparing the healthy food I'm supposed to be eating. I hate them taking up space and making me feel like a dirty housekeeper. I know ants have nothing to do with the way our apartment looks, but still.... so i called the apartment people AGAIN today. Hopefully they'll get something taken care of soon.
I'm going to see Harry Potter tomorrow. I'm excited. I'm very sad that I'm not seeing it with Liz, but glad there were still people who didn't have their plans finalized that I could tag along with!
I get to see my friends Paul & Abigail this weekend and am SO excited.
My mommy is coming down next week. I love my mom and I cannot WAIT to spend a few days with her, and have a couple much-needed days of vacation.
these are just what i'm thinking about right now...and now time to work!
7.06.2007
Enemy Mine
For as long as I can remember, I have had an enemy.
This is it.
I hate the scale, I hate what it tells me, I hate what it makes me think about myself.
I also know that I am the only one who can do anything about changing it. So, I have decided to go on a diet. Again. Here are my first thoughts from my newest blog...
"I have done the diet thing so many times now it just makes me sad. The most successful I've ever been was when I did weight watchers about 4 years ago. Paying the money and going every week was good for me, but I got lazy. And gained a lot of the weight back. I am back to the point now where I hate my body and I hate the way I look, so something has to change. I have decided to do weight watchers again; I am just going to try and do it myself. I am also going to put $5 in an envelope every week until I lose all the weight I want. At the end of that time, I am going to buy my new body something wonderful.
My husband is very encouraging in this, and that's probably the only way I could do it. He loves me like I am, I know that, but I want to look and feel my best for him. I have decided to do this blog separately from my personal blog, because I want to focus on what I eat, why I eat it, and what exercise I do, as well.
Please feel free to leave notes of encouragement or let me know your "diet" secrets!
Here's to a thinner, healthier me! (Imagine toasting with water, because water is ZERO points)."
I will be recording the ups and downs of this battle there. To the victor go the spoils!
This is it.
I hate the scale, I hate what it tells me, I hate what it makes me think about myself.
I also know that I am the only one who can do anything about changing it. So, I have decided to go on a diet. Again. Here are my first thoughts from my newest blog...
"I have done the diet thing so many times now it just makes me sad. The most successful I've ever been was when I did weight watchers about 4 years ago. Paying the money and going every week was good for me, but I got lazy. And gained a lot of the weight back. I am back to the point now where I hate my body and I hate the way I look, so something has to change. I have decided to do weight watchers again; I am just going to try and do it myself. I am also going to put $5 in an envelope every week until I lose all the weight I want. At the end of that time, I am going to buy my new body something wonderful.
My husband is very encouraging in this, and that's probably the only way I could do it. He loves me like I am, I know that, but I want to look and feel my best for him. I have decided to do this blog separately from my personal blog, because I want to focus on what I eat, why I eat it, and what exercise I do, as well.
Please feel free to leave notes of encouragement or let me know your "diet" secrets!
Here's to a thinner, healthier me! (Imagine toasting with water, because water is ZERO points)."
I will be recording the ups and downs of this battle there. To the victor go the spoils!
7.05.2007
In Recovery
Wow, for some reason Blogger just decided to erase my post. Gotta love that...
anyway, as I said before, I am slowly getting over this monster cold I've had now for a week. Instead of wanting to curl up in the fetal position and just die, I'm feeling more like a person. I'm still coughing and have a stuffed up nose, and for some reason sometimes when I talk, all the sounds don't come out, but other than that, I think i'm feeling a little better. I can communicate and hold a conversation without having to force myself to keep paying attention, so that's nice.
Can i just say how nice it was to have a day off in the middle of the week? True, today feels like another monday, but a monday without all the stress that i usually have to deal with, so that's nice. I'm looking at enough to keep me busy today, but not so much that i want to run away like i do most monday mornings! Now it's just a matter of finding the motivation to do the things that I need to get done today...like going to the theater to buy tickets for HARRY POTTER! I am so excited to see it :) I love Harry, i love the books, and if you want to ask me how they've affected my faith, feel free :) (note: SARCASM, people!)
I am going to assign the last two articles for the magazine today, which is also exciting. we've launched the new bulletin and I'm so excited about it.
I have not felt very deep the last couple days. I will try and think of something profound to say soon.
anyway, as I said before, I am slowly getting over this monster cold I've had now for a week. Instead of wanting to curl up in the fetal position and just die, I'm feeling more like a person. I'm still coughing and have a stuffed up nose, and for some reason sometimes when I talk, all the sounds don't come out, but other than that, I think i'm feeling a little better. I can communicate and hold a conversation without having to force myself to keep paying attention, so that's nice.
Can i just say how nice it was to have a day off in the middle of the week? True, today feels like another monday, but a monday without all the stress that i usually have to deal with, so that's nice. I'm looking at enough to keep me busy today, but not so much that i want to run away like i do most monday mornings! Now it's just a matter of finding the motivation to do the things that I need to get done today...like going to the theater to buy tickets for HARRY POTTER! I am so excited to see it :) I love Harry, i love the books, and if you want to ask me how they've affected my faith, feel free :) (note: SARCASM, people!)
I am going to assign the last two articles for the magazine today, which is also exciting. we've launched the new bulletin and I'm so excited about it.
I have not felt very deep the last couple days. I will try and think of something profound to say soon.
7.02.2007
Summer Cold
No, it's not an oxymoron - it's the sickness that i'm currently fighting with all of the energy i can muster. it started thursday morning as a sore throat and runny nose and has steadily progressed into a full out chest cold, complete with painful couch, sore throat, scratchy voice, and extreme fatigue. i'm at work, although i'd really rather be home and i'm not sure, honestly, how long i'll make it today. it seems that doing anything for more than a couple of hours makes me downright tired. I may have to nap sooner rather than later. That's the good thing about being able to clock in and out at the desk, i guess. i can clock out, climb into my comfy chair, and sleep for awhile, then clock back in.
tim is such a wonderful guy when i'm sick. he's been an angel this weekend, taking care of me, making sure i eat, and just letting me rest. i just pray he doesn't get sick, too!
not a lot to post here, obviously, and nothing too serious. I just get whiney when i'm sick and felt like complaining a little. :)
tim is such a wonderful guy when i'm sick. he's been an angel this weekend, taking care of me, making sure i eat, and just letting me rest. i just pray he doesn't get sick, too!
not a lot to post here, obviously, and nothing too serious. I just get whiney when i'm sick and felt like complaining a little. :)
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