5.26.2006
Star Light, Star Bright
My mom makes a wish for my little brother and I on every first star she sees in the sky. I think that's really sweet and touching and I love it. She's an amazing woman. I'm wearing the T-shirt I got when we did the cancer walk together today, so that's why i'm thinking about her today. Going home to see her in a couple weeks, which is very exciting. She's the best!
5.22.2006
Guest List
This is how i feel about trying to finalize the guest list for the wedding.
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Talk about a headache!
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Talk about a headache!
5.18.2006
Mood Meter
I have one of these mood things on my fridge at home. Sometimes I think it would be nice if everyone wore one on their shirt. it would have two "Today I Feel" squares. One would be for the person wearing the shirt and one would be for how their attitude comes across. I think that would be nice. Then we wouldn't have to play the who is and isn't in a crappy, sad, frustrated, easily angered, annoyed, annoying, happy, giddy mood game. We would just look and know whether we wanted to talk to them or let them go for the time being.
Here Comes the Sun!
After a week of endless rain, the sun has reappeared over southern Indiana and I couldn't be happier! Well, I guess there is always a chance I could be happier, but I am totally enjoying the sunshine this morning. I opened my bedroom blinds and stood there in the window like a plant soaking up the sun and feeling it warm me from head to toe. I totally needed that sunshine this morning, too. It's been a crazy week here. There is something going on every night, which is exhasting, but it keeps me busy. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to unwind at the end of the day as quickly as I usually do, so I've been up later than I really want to be.
I'm about 20-30 pages away from finishing "The Poisonwood Bible." It's a really good book, but requires more thought than I've had to put into a book for some time, so I feel like it's taking me forever to actually get it finished. I'm absorbing it slowly, and enjoying it greatly. I think part of it is the anti-English major in me. Once I stopped taking classes that forced me to read "real" literature, I took time to just read simple, easy books that didn't require a lot of thought or introspection. It's been good for me, though. Not sure what I'll read next. I need to go to the library, but I'm pretty sure I have a fine that I have to pay and I never have any cash on me.
Tim & I found out which apartment we will be living in after we're married yesterday. He's actually moving in July, which is fine. It's exciting to have an address and a place to call home. I think it will be fun to help him move in and then to arrange things so it feels like ours. Part of me thinks it will be really hard to not live together from July-October, but we've waited this long what's another 3 and 1/2 months? My hope is to have pretty much everything moved before the wedding, though, so that we can just clean and turn in the keys when we get back from the honeymoon. That's the plan as of right now.
Right now I only have plans for maybe one night next week, and I am very much looking forward to sitting around and doing 'nothing.' I'm sure it won't really be nothing, but right now that's what it looks like on paper!
I'm about 20-30 pages away from finishing "The Poisonwood Bible." It's a really good book, but requires more thought than I've had to put into a book for some time, so I feel like it's taking me forever to actually get it finished. I'm absorbing it slowly, and enjoying it greatly. I think part of it is the anti-English major in me. Once I stopped taking classes that forced me to read "real" literature, I took time to just read simple, easy books that didn't require a lot of thought or introspection. It's been good for me, though. Not sure what I'll read next. I need to go to the library, but I'm pretty sure I have a fine that I have to pay and I never have any cash on me.
Tim & I found out which apartment we will be living in after we're married yesterday. He's actually moving in July, which is fine. It's exciting to have an address and a place to call home. I think it will be fun to help him move in and then to arrange things so it feels like ours. Part of me thinks it will be really hard to not live together from July-October, but we've waited this long what's another 3 and 1/2 months? My hope is to have pretty much everything moved before the wedding, though, so that we can just clean and turn in the keys when we get back from the honeymoon. That's the plan as of right now.
Right now I only have plans for maybe one night next week, and I am very much looking forward to sitting around and doing 'nothing.' I'm sure it won't really be nothing, but right now that's what it looks like on paper!
5.12.2006
A Dreary Friday
But it's Friday, so even the rain cannot dampen my spirits. I feel like this has been a mildly productive week, which is good. I haven't had any part time work this week, which isn't really good, but i think it's been worth it to have a lower-key week. I'm sure she'll have something for me next week when i have something planned every night but Thursday!
Found my jump drive last night--in a place i had looked for it a dozen times. Whatever. I'm just glad I found it!!!
I am posting an excerpt from the last sermon that Kyle Lake wrote, that he never got to preach. Many of you have heard of him. He's the minister that was killed when something shorted in the baptistry at his church in Texas. This was first published in Relevant magazine and is amazing, I think.
“LIVE. And live well.
BREATHE. Breathe in and breathe deeply.
Be PRESENT. Do not be past. Do not be future. Be now.
On a crystal-clear, breezy, 70-degree day, roll down the windows and FEEL the wind against your skin. Feel the warmth of the sun. If you run, then allow those first few breaths on a cool autumn day to freeze your lungs and do not just be alarmed, be ALIVE.
Get knee-deep in a novel and lose track of time. If you bike, pedal HARD… and if you crash, then crash well. Fee the satisfaction of a job well done -- a paper well-written, a project thoroughly completed, a play well-performed. If you must wipe the snot from your three-year-old’s nose, don’t be disgusted if the Kleenex didn’t catch it all… because soon he’ll be wiping his own.
If you’ve recently experienced loss, then GRIEVE. And grieve well. At the table with friends and family, LAUGH. If you’re eating and laughing at the same time, then might as well laugh until you puke. And if you eat, then SMELL. The aromas are not impediments to your day. Steak on the grill, coffee beans freshly ground, cookies in the oven. And TASTE. Taste every ounce of flavor. Taste every ounce of friendship. Taste every ounce of life. Because it is most definitely a gift.”
Found my jump drive last night--in a place i had looked for it a dozen times. Whatever. I'm just glad I found it!!!
I am posting an excerpt from the last sermon that Kyle Lake wrote, that he never got to preach. Many of you have heard of him. He's the minister that was killed when something shorted in the baptistry at his church in Texas. This was first published in Relevant magazine and is amazing, I think.
“LIVE. And live well.
BREATHE. Breathe in and breathe deeply.
Be PRESENT. Do not be past. Do not be future. Be now.
On a crystal-clear, breezy, 70-degree day, roll down the windows and FEEL the wind against your skin. Feel the warmth of the sun. If you run, then allow those first few breaths on a cool autumn day to freeze your lungs and do not just be alarmed, be ALIVE.
Get knee-deep in a novel and lose track of time. If you bike, pedal HARD… and if you crash, then crash well. Fee the satisfaction of a job well done -- a paper well-written, a project thoroughly completed, a play well-performed. If you must wipe the snot from your three-year-old’s nose, don’t be disgusted if the Kleenex didn’t catch it all… because soon he’ll be wiping his own.
If you’ve recently experienced loss, then GRIEVE. And grieve well. At the table with friends and family, LAUGH. If you’re eating and laughing at the same time, then might as well laugh until you puke. And if you eat, then SMELL. The aromas are not impediments to your day. Steak on the grill, coffee beans freshly ground, cookies in the oven. And TASTE. Taste every ounce of flavor. Taste every ounce of friendship. Taste every ounce of life. Because it is most definitely a gift.”
5.11.2006
Losing my mind...
Well, it's happened. I've started dreaming, on a regular basis, about either the wedding or the travel to Jamaica or the honeymoon or something else. There is no real catastrophe in the dreams (well, last night one of the walls in our hotel room didn't exist and our IT guy was there with his wife), but it's starting to stress me out a little. It's like all the things I don't really think about too often are now coming to the surface all at once. So, I haven't been getting the most restful sleep imaginable.
And now, I seem to have misplaced my jump drive. Which isn't a HUGE catastrophe, except it was 50 bucks and had the most updated wedding guest list and all that stuff on it. I'm SURE it will turn up somewhere...just where is the question right now. I remember having it Thursday, which was the day I did some shopping for stuff for Paul and Abigail. I think I had it Friday, when I stopped to get the pictures that I had developed and went home. So, either it's in a bag of stuff somewhere, or...who knows. I hate losing stuff, that's for sure. I was convinced it was in the bottom of my purse, which turned out not to be the case at all. Grr. The problem is, until I find it, I will become almost obsessed with where it could be. I guess that means there will be some going through garbage and serious cleaning...always a good time!
And now, I seem to have misplaced my jump drive. Which isn't a HUGE catastrophe, except it was 50 bucks and had the most updated wedding guest list and all that stuff on it. I'm SURE it will turn up somewhere...just where is the question right now. I remember having it Thursday, which was the day I did some shopping for stuff for Paul and Abigail. I think I had it Friday, when I stopped to get the pictures that I had developed and went home. So, either it's in a bag of stuff somewhere, or...who knows. I hate losing stuff, that's for sure. I was convinced it was in the bottom of my purse, which turned out not to be the case at all. Grr. The problem is, until I find it, I will become almost obsessed with where it could be. I guess that means there will be some going through garbage and serious cleaning...always a good time!
5.02.2006
Great Quote
First, I heard this from Liz. Then I saw it on Tyana's blog. Now it is here. I think this may be one of the most moving quotes I have heard in a long time. It is from Akeelah and the Bee, a movie I think I may need to see sooner rather than later.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
I do not know a person for whom the above quote would not resonate, would not touch, would not move. It is haunting and beautiful all at once. I think it is a magnificent summation of what I feel at least a few times a week. I never really thought about it in quite the above way, but I still thought about it.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
I do not know a person for whom the above quote would not resonate, would not touch, would not move. It is haunting and beautiful all at once. I think it is a magnificent summation of what I feel at least a few times a week. I never really thought about it in quite the above way, but I still thought about it.
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