Sometimes You Feel Like a Nut
Sometimes you don't. I don't know which I am today, which probably makes me a nut, right? Sorry it's been so long since I've written anything. I spent most of last week organizing my office and files (getting rid of the stuff from the lady that had this job before me and getting her computer files, etc, organized), and generally being a lazy slob. Not an excuse, but still :) Tim made it back from Mexico in one piece, even though his luggage arrived safely several hours after he did...ah well. It was so great to see him again. Sometimes the amount of love I feel for him is overwhelming, but always in a good way.
So, I've made a decision-and a hard one at that. This year, for the first time ever, I am not going on vacation with my family. It sucks. It's just one of those things--family vacations have always been a big deal for my family. It's one of those things; they're always a little crazy and a little nuts, always an adventure and always insane, but always good. However, due to timing and the fact that my July is already very busy, I just can't do it this year. I don't know how I feel about it. I'm sad and it's going to be really strange to see pictures of them at places I've never been, but I guess I'm growing up. The weekends they're going to be gone are the weekends of the wedding of two good friends here at the church and the other weekend is Tim and I's one year anniversary. I just don't like this growing up thing at all. However, cameron is going to come down and hang out with me for a couple days this summer. He's awesome and I love him, so that will be great. I'm actually really looking forward to it; then I will go home for a long weekend sometime, too. It's just so strange to be an adult. I guess I need to stop saying that and just get over it, but (imagine whiney voice here) I DON'T WANT TO! That's not true, I guess...I want to grow up and 'get over it' but it's a very strange thing for me.
However, I am so thankful for the fact that I have gotten to go on some GREAT family vacations in the past. Last year alone I went to the 100th Anniversary of Flight Air Show, Florida, and Costa Rica. All were awesome trips. The year before that...was that Washington DC? I think it was. There have been so many great trips. It will be strange for them to go see Old Faithful and Mt. Rushmore without me, but there is simply no way I could spend that many days cooped up in the back of a car. If it wasn't the weekend of the wedding, I would probably have flown out to Seattle for a long break, but it's just not going to work out. How strange is that...reminds me of the Billy Joel song, "Souvenir"
"...and every year's a souvenir that slowly fades away."
6.29.2004
6.23.2004
This is what I spent three hours of my life watching last night. Funny thing is, I knew what number 1 would be from the start :) Then again, it's pretty much a no-brainer. Watching it made me realize how much I miss the movie musical though. I love them and they just don't exist anymore. I mean, there are a couple, but the feel-good Gene Kelly era is gone...ah well...
CNN.com - List of 100 best movie songs - Jun 23, 2004
CNN.com - List of 100 best movie songs - Jun 23, 2004
6.22.2004
Okay, I'll admit it...I'm going a little crazy without him. Tim left on Saturday morning to go to Mexico for a week and I haven't spoken to him since he touched down in San Diego around 1:00 that afternoon. I know it's silly and I know I should be able to function completely normally without him for a week, but the fact of the matter is...I don't WANT to. I want him to be here. I want to miss him. I want to whisper that I love him and hold him close. I know that it is so selfish of me, and I'm working on that. I do want him to have a great time. I hope it is a fruitful and growing experience. I hope and pray that he's safe and healthy and feeling close to God. I hope he's getting all the video that he needs to make a great piece. I pray that he feels my love and knows that I am praying so hard for him. He'll be home around 4:30 on Saturday and we're going to head to Mt. Pleasant to go to church and then back home. I'm counting down the days, but my heart is anxious. I don't think anything will change while he's gone, but of course I had dreams that said just the opposite last night.
I think as long as I live, I will never understand dreams. There's a Chris Rice song that says something about when he gets to heaven, he'll have a million questions for God and one of them will be why we dream and what they mean. I'm with him on that one. Cinderella says "A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes" but I'm not buying that one at all. I'm thinking that a dream is something completely different. Thoughts?
I think as long as I live, I will never understand dreams. There's a Chris Rice song that says something about when he gets to heaven, he'll have a million questions for God and one of them will be why we dream and what they mean. I'm with him on that one. Cinderella says "A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes" but I'm not buying that one at all. I'm thinking that a dream is something completely different. Thoughts?
6.18.2004
6.16.2004
It has been a productive week, thank goodness. I am not looking forward to everyone leaving next week. In fact, the mass exodus has begun. Slowly and surely there are people leaving. The church is getting more and more empty, that's for sure. Anyway, I recently made some changes on the ol' blog. I like the picture and I like how it makes me feel a bit more peaceful...unfortunately, I haven't been able to figure out how to get my font back...ah well, what can I do.
I ran across the quote at the top again recently when I was talking to Liz about the song "Windmills." The quote is so much my life. To be too sane is madness...how about that??!!?? I think I often lead a life that is almost too safe and secure. I want to know that there is something more out there, but I too often do not let things challenge or change me. Maybe next week will be a good way to start that...no one will be around; I will have way too much free time on my hands, so I can start evaluating things and getting things figured out.
My goal is to write more, and this is a great week to start this. In fact, why should I wait for tomorrow, when I can start right now.
Every life is a story--and I know mine is in there somewhere. I'll just have to find it. And I will find it, dear reader, I promise I will find it. And you will all know it someday!
I ran across the quote at the top again recently when I was talking to Liz about the song "Windmills." The quote is so much my life. To be too sane is madness...how about that??!!?? I think I often lead a life that is almost too safe and secure. I want to know that there is something more out there, but I too often do not let things challenge or change me. Maybe next week will be a good way to start that...no one will be around; I will have way too much free time on my hands, so I can start evaluating things and getting things figured out.
My goal is to write more, and this is a great week to start this. In fact, why should I wait for tomorrow, when I can start right now.
Every life is a story--and I know mine is in there somewhere. I'll just have to find it. And I will find it, dear reader, I promise I will find it. And you will all know it someday!
6.10.2004
Well, i haven't really had TIME to blog and really don't now, but here I go anyway. :)
The verdict is in on Tim's car. It has been totaled with something like $4100 worth of damage. He's getting a little more than that from the insurance company, so it's making a nice down payment on his new car--a 2005 Corolla. It's nice. Okay, so we haven't seen it yet; but it's been ordered and should arrive while he is in Mexico on the mission trip. He's getting anxious to see it and actually handling all of this stuff a lot better than i would, i am sure of that.
What else? It's an absolutely crazy couple of weeks at work. Between our newsletter, the directory, graduation Sunday and my regular job duties, i'm swamped and barely keeping my head up this week. Ah well, it's good stress, though. I love my job and I love being busy, I just wish everything wasn't due at the same time. :)
Life is so good, though. We went to the zoo (Indianapolis) on Saturday last week. I love the zoo. It's just so much fun to me to see all the animals and to spend the day outside enjoying the weather. I'll post a couple pictures in a bit.
A lot of my friends are going to be gone the week of the 19-26. Tim, Diane, Karen, and Kelly will be in Mexico. Liz and Jenny will be in California. Rene is house-sitting. It's going to be a very relaxing week--or a very boring week. But, I am sure it will be good for me. The plan is to take at least one day off and enjoy the not being busy, but I'm not sure that will work out either. I'm going through that I don't want to just sit and do nothing phase lately.
I'm in a drama this weekend at church...and I'm yet to memorize my lines :)
WHOOPS :)
The verdict is in on Tim's car. It has been totaled with something like $4100 worth of damage. He's getting a little more than that from the insurance company, so it's making a nice down payment on his new car--a 2005 Corolla. It's nice. Okay, so we haven't seen it yet; but it's been ordered and should arrive while he is in Mexico on the mission trip. He's getting anxious to see it and actually handling all of this stuff a lot better than i would, i am sure of that.
What else? It's an absolutely crazy couple of weeks at work. Between our newsletter, the directory, graduation Sunday and my regular job duties, i'm swamped and barely keeping my head up this week. Ah well, it's good stress, though. I love my job and I love being busy, I just wish everything wasn't due at the same time. :)
Life is so good, though. We went to the zoo (Indianapolis) on Saturday last week. I love the zoo. It's just so much fun to me to see all the animals and to spend the day outside enjoying the weather. I'll post a couple pictures in a bit.
A lot of my friends are going to be gone the week of the 19-26. Tim, Diane, Karen, and Kelly will be in Mexico. Liz and Jenny will be in California. Rene is house-sitting. It's going to be a very relaxing week--or a very boring week. But, I am sure it will be good for me. The plan is to take at least one day off and enjoy the not being busy, but I'm not sure that will work out either. I'm going through that I don't want to just sit and do nothing phase lately.
I'm in a drama this weekend at church...and I'm yet to memorize my lines :)
WHOOPS :)
6.03.2004
Well, the verdict will be in on Tim's car tomorrow. The semi-exact quote from the insurance people is that it 'may not be repairable.' This is not the news we were hoping for at all. You look at the pictures below and judge for yourself. I mean, I'm not an expert at all, but it seems like if 3 of the four sides of your car are fine, then it shouldn't be worthless. So yeah, say a prayer that the insurance people decide to fix it, because that will make Tim's life a whole lot easier and happier.
thanks!
thanks!
6.02.2004
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